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i’m getting lazier each day.
there are times that all i want is to have fun under the basking sun!
or sometimes, i want to just sit down and enjoy watching the time passes by.
oh! how quick it is yet how much is wasted.
above all else, oftentimes, it is great to take an escape
from the hustles and bustles of city life from time to time
and just kick back and relax and appreciate life once again 
“cause all of the stars are fading away
just try not to worry, you’ll see them someday
take what you need and be on your way
and stop crying your heart out”
Needless to say, I am hurt today. I hate to feel this. I don’t want to cry nor be in pain. But, there’s no escaping anymore. It’s here already. You know, the feeling where you feel so down and you want to tell the person who caused it but you just can’t because you don’t want another fight to crack up? It sucks, literally and figuratively. And sometimes, it just doesn’t make any sense for the person won’t even give a damn of what you’re trying to say. Big headed crack ups usually do that and I hate it. I hate it BIG time! It pisses me off, actually.
For the most part, I am here to rant and I won’t feel sorry for this. I just need some outlet, I need to let this out. I’m tired of bottling things up. I’m tired of not being heard. I’m very tired of keeping everything inside me and pretend I am okay. Well, hello world! I’m not okay. I hate it when people don’t give a damn of what I am trying to say because hey, I listen to you even if it can get really ridiculous at times! Why do you have to treat me this way? Why do you keep on pressing an issue which, in the first place, doesn’t exist anyway? Well, world, why can’t you just be happy that I’ve reached out to you? Why do you have to think some silly stuffs and think of it negatively? Because for Pete’s sake, I was just trying to reach out to you with no bad intention or whatsoever you would wanna brand it! Tell me, world, do I need to be triggered just to be nice to you? Do I need a concrete reason to start treating you nicely? Why can’t you just be thankful that at last I’ve realized my mistakes and have treated you nicely for the very first time in months! Why do you have to be very complicated, world? Why can’t you just be happy for I’ve changed?
Well, maybe you’re just the same old world I’ve came to know - the complicated one who thinks that you’re always right and that no one can ever prove you’re wrong; that your ideas are very ideal and should not be contested. But, hey, world! I just want you to know that I’ve changed already. I’m really sorry but I can’t put up with your games anymore. I’m not planning to and will never intend to play your game again. I will never be the girl who would show up in your doorstep and pretend that everything’s okay because in reality it’s not. I won’t be that someone who would just smile to hide the pain. Those acts were just plain stupid, I’ve realized. Now, I don’t care anymore. Take me or leave me, I’d still be the joanmarie that have been shaped up by the past but have been built stronger by the person I am today.
It’s my first time to visit Cebu for Sinulog and boy was I really excited! I have been looking forward to this trip since December and have even asked someone for our accommodation there (Cebu). But, something happened and that someone backed out the day before our departure. Worse, when I called up the hotels that day, they were fully booked. FAST FORWARD for I don’t want to talk about it further. Tish!
January 15, 2010 (Friday)
- My beau and I left CDO at around 11am - 12noon and expected to arrive in Cebu at around 7pm. Both of us were worried already as to where we should stay for the night. We contacted friends but to no avail, they can’t helped us either.
- Around 7pm, as expected, we arrived at the Cebu port. It was raining hard outside so we have to wait until the rain would turn into drizzle. Alas, the rain slowed down and we decided to go.
- Outside the port, we hailed a taxi cab and then instructed the driver to a hotel that my beau had stayed when he visited Cebu last year. It was at Sarrosa International Hotel. With fingers crossed, I went to the front desk and inquired a room. Thankfully, there was an available room which cost us Php 3,100 with free breakfast. Although it was a bit pricey, we didn’t have much choice so we booked it.
- Luckily, the front desk woman told us that a vacant and much cheaper room was available the next day. So, we reserved that room and decided to transfer there before 12 noon.
January 16, 2010 (Saturday)
- Had a late breakfast at the hotel and proceeded to work and send reports as well as checked our ATMs.
- Decided to go to SM and shopped. Jev decided to allow me to shop using his credit card as a gift for my birthday. I bought a Mango shirt (the design I have been wishing to have - plain shirt with the Mango print), a charm bracelet with the letters of my name dangling on it, bleach catastrophe shirts and a So F.A.B. sandals. weeee! My smile was sooo big!
had lunch at sbarro's
- decided to join the procession happening on that day. The funny thing was, we don’t have any idea on the route of the procession so we just followed the people walking on the streets! hahaha! However, we didn’t finish it though as we were so tired and somebody said it’s going to finish at around 8pm.
- At around 5pm, we decided to go to Ayala and wait for Jev’s friends there (Aron Ofngol, Bentot Ofngol). To kill the time, we strolled there and I happily took snapshots of him as I already have my own set of pictures there during my last visit in Cebu.
here's the two of us in Ayala
- After that, we had our dinner at Kenny Rogers (this where we’ve met up with the Ofngol brothers, too)
- Jev badly needs to go to the CR so we (Jev, Bentot, Aron and I) decided to go to our hotel and let Jev do his thing at the same time wait for Bel Govico to arrive.
a view outside our hotel room
here's a picture of us with Bel, finally :)
- Bel was our designated tour guide as he knows the place well since he studies in Cebu. We decided to go to Fuente, Osmeña then headed to Crown Regency Hotel to try the Edge Coaster.
@ the busy street of Fuente
- we headed up to Crown Regency Hotel and met up some of their MMV neighbors. I think they were the Alquisalas Family. Not that sure, though. But I heard Jev mentioned the name.
a view from the elevator going up to the 38th floor
with their neighbors
@ the 38th floor of the hotel. we're in between with the telescopes and behind us is the railing for the edge coaster
- I really wanted to try the edge coaster so I had to convince Jev to ride it with me. He was really scared but in the end, I got what I want. 
His friends tried the edge coaster too! It was really fun and worth the cost! No KIDDING!
here's us trying the edge coaster. it's before I tilted the coaster.
- then, we at around 1am, we proceeded to Cebu’s IT Park and strolled there for a bit. Rested at KFC and bid our goodbyes at around 2am.
January 17, 2010 (Sunday)
- Jev and I decided to have a side trip in Bohol (to save our money as I need to celebrate for my birthday, too). We decided to visit my relatives in Panggangan, Calape, Bohol.
- Had videoke sessions at Ate Bebeth’s house and was amazed by how Visayan my half Filipino - half German cousins spoke.
- Was about to go for a swim in their sanctuary but unfortunately, it was low tide. 
arrival at Bohol
January 18, 2010 (Monday)
- Jev and I had to wake up early since we’re going to Dumog, Island. It’s a white island somewhere in Tubigon, Bohol.
- We ate our breakfast and lunch there and enjoyed picking up shells as well as other sea creatures. BTW, the ones we’ve picked were the viands we had for breakfast and lunch. I love the food! Sa-ang (a big shell) really tastes good!
- And, I get to eat a lot of fresh sea foods as well as fruits!
on our way to the island
a picture of how the weather was during that day.
luckily, it didn't rain :)
- after our Dumog Island trip, we visited my grand mother (father’s side) as well as my father’s older siblings. We ate our dinner there too but didn’t stay that long as we have to travel early the next day.
Januray 19, 2010 (Tuesday)
- woke up extremely early so that we can catch up the earliest ride back to Cebu.
- though our flight was still in the afternoon, we decided to go back early so that we can visit the Sto Niño Church to pray.
- lit our candles in the Church, heard mass but we’re late
- visited Magellan’s cross
- ate a sumptuous eat-all-you-can at Cabalen’s
- did our last minute shopping and pasalubong buying at SM
- stayed in SM while killing the time
- and finally, by 4:40 PM, we’ve arrived safely in CDO.
buhbye Cebu, till our next trip!
greeting Cagayan de Oro with our tan (blame it on Bohol)
Despite some mishaps, I did enjoy the trip and I’m looking forward to the next one!
A lot of things have happened in my life since the last time I wrote an entry here. I’ve been busy dealing with every events and yes, tired and way too lazy to even tap the keyboard and tell you the goings on in my life.
DECEMEBER:
- Mom arrived from California! A happy feeling for we get to celebrate Christmas together again (a rare occasion due to distance)
- Played golf for the very first time since highschool years! Yep, my swing and the way I play didn’t improve. (just as I’ve expected! haha!)
- Spend lesser time with friends as I’ve concentrated being with my family but made up to them in January.
- Got myself INKED! Well, not a fancy tattoo, though. Just an eyeliner tattoo to feed my hunger for eyeliners and so I would lessen the time I need when I wear makeup! haha!
this is me minutes after I got the tattoo! Look at those eyes! Looked like I was crying for hours! But didn't regret it, though. I super LURVE it!
JANUARY:
- My eldest brother got married with his girlfriend of 13 years. FINALLY!
- Got to celebrate my mom and dad’s anniversary again for the first time in years! We had a post anniversary celebration and decided to dine at Cafe Laguna. Bill was paid by us (the children, of course).
- For the first time in my life, I had been able to go inside a KTV bar with ballroom music and live performance by local singers in CDO. Congratulate me, people!
- Bye bye time to some of my family members, including my Mom. But this time, I wasn’t sad compared to the last time we bid our goodbyes. Why? For I know we get to see each other again, sometime soon!
- I really love to travel and finally, I did it! Went to Cebu for Sinulog with my beau and friends. (will share the details on my next post, promise!)
- Tada! I turned 22 on 22! I don’t know why but for some reason, I’m still happy looking back as to how I celebrated my 22nd birthday. Though I didn’t get to celebrate it the kid’s way, I surely had fun celebrating it in a much simple way. (again, details will be poured on my next post)
- Tonight, I won’t spend it here in our home. I’ll have an overnight with my friends in Mac’s house. It’s a despedida get together since Yen and Zacky are leaving the country this February 2 and 3. Can’t wait to be with them again!
So far, my 2 months worth of life’s slice is great! I didn’t have any regrets, whatsoever! Looking forward to another slice!
Enjoy life while you still can, friends!
my birthday’s coming up! and yes, just like any other person in this world, i have my own wish list, too! to save you from getting stressed, i’ll give you the list of what i want for my birthday! hahaha!
1. a kiddie parteeeeh! — yes, i wanna have one and i’m planning to have one. however, i’m still not sure as it depends on the money i’ll have after the sinulog trip. hahaha!
2. cross-training shoes — you’ve read it right! finally, i’m fancying shoes! and imma use it for exercise. yey!
3. gym (duffel) bag. — i care less about the brand. just give me one.
4. xbox controller — i don’t care if it’s wired or not. i just need one for my new toy.
5. a 23″ LG LCD monitor with HDMI port — it’s for my xbox. hahaha!
6. altec lansing speakers — the MX5021 model (again, it’s for my xbox)
7. one guitar controller for the xbox — it doesn’t matter if it’s wired. my set lacks one guitar. lol.
8. books, books, and BOOKS!
9. a DSLR camera
10. speedo swimsuit — imma enroll to swim class for my scoliosis. haha!
11. steaming cup of seatle’s best coffee
12. old alternative MP3s
13. all of my pictures printed and placed in an album (as in lahat ng nasa hard drive ko! haha!)
14. starbucks’s planner
15. cinnabon — yummy!
16. candy’s sinful chocolate cake — i don’t want a slice. i want the whole cake! yummmmm!
17. a one year free hosting and domain name for my weblog. mine’s going to expire this year.
18. a computer chair — yung comfy masyado, ha?
19. a table — imma use it for my laptop and some other stuffs 
20. free of charge in any Sentara nail spa services
21. chicharong bulaklak — no kidding! hahaha!
22. a one year supply of Cosmopolitan magazine for FREE!
this is me! happy =)
Everything is doing great lately and I am very happy with how things are going. My spirit is usually high nowadays and it never fails to surprise me.
One of the main highlights as to why I am happy, well, it’s because my mom will be home for the Christmas Holidays. I mean, our family don’t get this chance easily anymore since my mother’s out of the country. Again, I’ll experience the warmth of having my family complete amidst the cold winds of December. My Christmas this year will be happier than usual and yes, it has life now! Ain’t that cute?
Second, my relationship with my significant other is getting better each day. We’ve determined our shortcomings and have been really trying hard to correct it. Our relationship is changing and it’s for the better and it’s heart warming to know that it’s not just me or him who is working in our relationship. It’s very good to know that we’re now working as a team, as a couple. After all, it takes two to tango, right?
Third, I have the best friends ever! Words can’t explain how thankful I am to have them and to keep them for how many years.
Okay. I really enjoy all those meme’s scattered in the social networking sites. So, I took the pleasure of answering the survey I have came across with some time ago. Anyway, what you’ll actually find here are facts about me. No lies. Just plain truth. Enjoy!
1. Many people mistakenly thought I drink and smoke. Ha! The truth is, I do not have vices at all! I love hanging out with my friends and going home late with them but that does not mean I go drinking all night and smoking all the cigarettes around. Naaaah! That is so not me! You may see photos of me with friends drinking but don’t be fooled too easily like the others. The reason for which is maybe I have been surrounded with drinkers and smokers already. So, what’s the need to do those?
2. If you see me walking and think that my posture is weird, blame it all to my back. I have scoliosis. I have recently found out that I have a slightly deviated to the right spine column. I went to the doctor to have it checked and asked if therapy is needed. Luckily, it’s a minor case and therapy is not needed. Weepee! Now, that answers my question as to why my posture is quite extra ordinaire!
3. It’s a miracle if you can see me running around like a dog. I hate physical activities. I do not like anything to do with running, jumping or the likes. But, since I have a crooked spine, I am now forcing myself to go to the gym for the exercises that’s needed for my lovely spine. (Encourage me more please) more…
I just came across this site today and took this personality quiz. I agree to some of the results. But not all, though.
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren’t interested in wasting time with people you don’t really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You’re a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you’ll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don’t succeed. Don’t give up when you haven’t yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
I’m here in my room blasting my music from my newly bought ipod touch. My mind’s a mess lately so, I don’t know if you’ll get the meat of this article. Anyway, I’ll just do free writing to do away the things on my mind.
I’ve got nothing to do exactly. I am bored yet I’m happy. Funny? Ironic? I know. Sometimes, there are things that are bound to be this way. You are bored yet you are contented. Did you get what I’m saying? I think, you didn’t. LOL!
This is just me when I am a mess and when there are things that I need to keep for myself. You see, I am an ambivert. I am open yet close at the same time. In short, I only let out things that I think are deserving to get out of my little self. The thing is, I really want to let out these hefty feeling inside me, yet, I don’t want you to know. I want a diary but I am too tired to actually jot things down. I’m a techie girl. Hahaha! I get tired jotting down notes. I’m used to typing it down. Get what I mean?
Anyway, I dunno if I’ll still continue talking. This post really is senseless. Maybe because I am still battling with myself whether I should finally get out of my shell or just continue hiding a piece of me from you. Tsk! I’m really really really not good right now. Messy.
Hmmmm…this day is a very lucky day for me! I am just so happy that eventhough my day didn’t start out right, at least it ended happily!
I just got the best news today. I went to check on the status of the item I ordered online and the good thing is, it arrived here in the Philippines already! I just hope I can already get it tomorrow. I’m sooo excited to finally have it in my hands.
Not only that! I, now, have a topic for my technical research. I’ll talk more about it when my professor would approve it. Let’s keep our fingers crossed! Wish me more luck, badly need one. Winkz!
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